Post by Oliver Isaac Danhood on Jun 28, 2009 12:49:06 GMT -5
'All that I am, all that I ever was, is fading away. So I'll disappear.'
So...Personal convictions and events have made me start thinking about stuff. It made me start thinking about how I've become addicted to forum roleplaying and facebook, unable to find anything better to do with my time than lock myself in my room and stare at a computer all day and far into the night. It's bad. It's taxing my committment to real life relationships and pulling my mind perpetually into a fabricated world. For me, it's becoming an obsession.
Do ya'll know what it is to let go of something big in your life so the really important stuff can run more smoothly? In this case, I'd call it getting my priorities straight. And my morals. My time of the computer has got me thinking the wrong things, and as I write/spend time on the computer I feel like I'm lying to myself and everyone I'm interacting with. So after some serious reflection, I've decided.
No more than a couple hours on the computer a day. No internet aside from email, no writing aside from personal projects. No facebook. All for the summer.
I guess the moral of this story is not to tread the line at all. Do so, and the ground beneath your feet will crumble under you, casting you into the abyss past everything you thought you believed in. Lucky me, I stopped. I guess sometimes you have to go too far to understand why the limits were created in the first place. Lucky me, I have someone who'll reach down and catch me before I hit bottom. And he'll never stop, no matter how many times or how far I fall. I just feel I owe it to him to learn from my mistakes.
At the end of the summer I'll decide whether I'm coming back at all. If so, I guess you'll see me then. If not, I'll get on and say so.
Mikki and Kels: I know we're in the middle of a plot, but if I don't go now, I never will. I need to do this. You guys are awesome, and amazing writers, but the whole plotline is screwing me up. And it's my fault--I'm not blaming you at all. For now, real life takes precedence.
So...Personal convictions and events have made me start thinking about stuff. It made me start thinking about how I've become addicted to forum roleplaying and facebook, unable to find anything better to do with my time than lock myself in my room and stare at a computer all day and far into the night. It's bad. It's taxing my committment to real life relationships and pulling my mind perpetually into a fabricated world. For me, it's becoming an obsession.
Do ya'll know what it is to let go of something big in your life so the really important stuff can run more smoothly? In this case, I'd call it getting my priorities straight. And my morals. My time of the computer has got me thinking the wrong things, and as I write/spend time on the computer I feel like I'm lying to myself and everyone I'm interacting with. So after some serious reflection, I've decided.
No more than a couple hours on the computer a day. No internet aside from email, no writing aside from personal projects. No facebook. All for the summer.
I guess the moral of this story is not to tread the line at all. Do so, and the ground beneath your feet will crumble under you, casting you into the abyss past everything you thought you believed in. Lucky me, I stopped. I guess sometimes you have to go too far to understand why the limits were created in the first place. Lucky me, I have someone who'll reach down and catch me before I hit bottom. And he'll never stop, no matter how many times or how far I fall. I just feel I owe it to him to learn from my mistakes.
At the end of the summer I'll decide whether I'm coming back at all. If so, I guess you'll see me then. If not, I'll get on and say so.
Mikki and Kels: I know we're in the middle of a plot, but if I don't go now, I never will. I need to do this. You guys are awesome, and amazing writers, but the whole plotline is screwing me up. And it's my fault--I'm not blaming you at all. For now, real life takes precedence.
